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On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Did I fall asleep?
Is this all a dream
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

On this bed I lay
Losing everything
I can see my life passing me by
Was it all too much
Or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

- Time of Dying, Three Days Grace



Well, I've been feeling very up and down over the past two days. Yesterday I was so close to crying, it's not even funny. Yeah, I found out, for anyone who doesn't know already, that Alyssa's tumor is Grade 3, and she's got a 35% (?) chance of survival. But, given that she's young, it goes up. She doesn't have the worst possible brain tumor to get (Stayka said something about that earlier, and it it turns out, that sort of tumor only has a survival rate of 2-3%, and less.), but it's still bad. On the upside, I hopped aboard the Nyu's Art Meme thing, so that's up. It got my mind off some of this stuff that's going on. I'm finding that drawing has been helping. x.x I'm so tired, but I've got work I've gotta do and I wanna see Alyssa again tomorrow... Meh, my life is hell right now. I know of people that've been through worse, though, so I'm not saying that my life is all that bad, but, it's still hell...